your very own stalker

sarah the bitch

2008-03-31T21:25:00.000-07:00

im reaching a state of depression from looking into my future and realising that i have to work for the rest of my life. like, what if after i graduate, i realise that i don't like what i'm doing. okay, my day just got a bit better cos pretty kim just gave me a slice of damn good homemade carrot cake. (: omg yay. ya, i miss school. i just want to stay in school and dance and play judo for the rest of my life, seriously. i miss going for training. going to the nationals indiv was so cool cos it brought back lots of memories. we even saw ma jun, yen lin and the girl who played against siti from ny.

anyway, back to the horrids of my life that is teaching and teaching, i went into a class this morning and was really bad at teaching i bet they didn't learn anything today cos i was so blur and tired that i forgot all the stuff i was supposed to teach, and it didn't help that i didn't have my powerpoint slides. and the thing is i taught them quite straightforward stuff today (ie. formation of deltas, distributaries, floodplains, levees & uses of rivers) so then i didn't know what to do and i was like shit. i had to refer to my notes and practically just read out loud. but 3/5 rocks lah they were so nice and just talked to me and was so encouraging. i really love my students but it's just me! i dont know why i just can't do it. i don't have the talent for this. maybe i have a bit... but i've been so pissed lately that i've successfully convinced myself that i don't. (the carrot cake is helping though...)

yeah so i'm at school now. a bit mixed with regards to my feelings for ij. after realising that the tentative date of jac yip's return is 7 april ie. next monday ie. my birthday, i got hit by this sad bug. i don't really want to leave my kids cos ALL my classes really rock. even the ones that don't like me, they're still really nice people and i love them to bits. but i don't want to waste their few years of education.

but what i really really cannot stand is tuition. yes, the kids rock too and i don't want to waste their education and parent's money too but what really draws the line of distinction is sarah the bitch. she's an insult to ij girls everywhere. she's a snob who thinks she's so great just cos she's got a little more experience (shouldn't she be in uni now?), who flirts with guys 23o839 years younger than her, which is just disgusting. she bosses people around and threw my best friend out of the centre. like, who gave her the authority, willis wasn't even there. and she has absolutely no sense of humour, okay! (said to the rhythm of patrick's "it's not my problem okay!") then she sits in my lesson, i don't know whatever for because my evaluation is not even this week, it's next week. and i'm praying that i fail the evaluation or i'm gonna just ask them to let me go. i don't even want to go to work next week cos its my birthday (yay!) and darling rachel won't be here. i miss her already. miss taiwan. but that's not important. ya anyway, so she evaluates this unnecessary thing then tells me how i need to improve (which i do need to "improve", no fault in that... except i was trying to teach un-funly when she was there. when she left, we had a ball. seriously.) so whatever, so that's not the annoying part. the annoying part was she actually was teaching me how to raise my voice like i'm some sort of dummy who doesn't even know how to do that and the would like perk her eyebrows up and look fierce but actually that just makes her look more piggy-ish. and act all authoritative with this deep voice that makes her look very scary. but she insists that works in getting their attention so they really know you mean it or whatever. i have no problems controlling the class via assertion but i just don't enjoy teaching okay?

so i really think, no, KNOW that i'm gonna quit that dumb place. even though some people like min hao and andrew are nice and i'm always the bitchy one cos im always "tired" (i really have to drag my ass out the door to go for tuition so i'm happen to always be unhappy when i go there), so i totally understand if they hate me. but it's just... teaching is not my thing. in case you all didn't know that, let me emphasize. teaching is not my thing. but i still love kids, more than ever. especially cute fadzes. (: oh by the way, my wonderful sister the good influence told me to "ditch the kid and go watch horton" which i really wanted to do. and ya i have to watch horton soon before it flies away. (sondra!!!!)

so... sorry, sarah, since you're so great at teaching and can look fierce all, you can take over my sessions and show off to everyone, im sure you'd enjoy that. the english teacher who speaks singlish, what a wonderful catch. cos you know we all "respect" and "admire" you and your bitch face and attitude. have fun being a slut paedophile. in hope that next week will be my last time seeing you... see ya, don't wanna be ya!

the best concert everrr!

2008-03-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

dear readers,

not that there're many... but since i'm hopeful,

let me tell you all that THE MAROON 5 IT WON'T BE SOON BEFORE LONG BEFORE ASIAN TOUR WAS THE BEST CONCERT EVERRRRRRR!

yes, sondra, please nod incessantly now.

have a few pictures but too lazy to post them now. anyway, they're all just mainly sondra, me and a bunch of pink hands.

anyway, yeah! the whole entire indoor stadium was up on their feet dancing (as was i) throughout the entire thing! we were having so much fun, we didn't even realise that we had been dancing for over an hour non stop and they had sung almost every famous song and some less famous ones for so long that it was the end of the concert.

everyone was still screaming and shouting "i love you"s in the dark AFTER the band went off stage that they had to come back and play their encore she will be loved. omg they're really damn good. adam levine was on pitch even though he sang like 20 songs non stop and played his guitar as well. he even sang the kanye west song and sunday morning (ahh!) and yes he sang many songs from songs about jane (yay!). the drummer was so fantastic man, he was rocking sweat. wow, that night was really really really good.

okay, if you all are jealous of me now, don't worry. let me tell you how i've been dreading my jobs, yes not just job, but jobS. because for some dumb reason (dumb being christy) i've undertaken two jobs that are nearly exactly the same, THEN i realised that i absolutely hate the jobs.

it's not that teaching is a bad job, it's just that I am not cut out for teaching. absolutely not. no way. how do i know this? well, first of all, i DREAD going to work, i dread doing the stuff for work, even if they're just powerpoint slides or photocopying worksheets. it sucks even more because i can't connect with one or two classes and things get REALLY bad when you're around kids who don't like you. at least if they quite like you, you enjoy going to classes and hanging out with them and you get it better cos the kids respect you enough to at least hear you out. but nooooo, i mean it's not possible to have all your classes like you, i know, but it's just doubly / triply / quadruply hard when they do.

i miss those days odd-jobbing at starhub and having a lot of time to chill and go to the gym. :( i actually liked going to all my past jobs. i'd rather go to a small office at the hotel ten times more than going to school/tuition everyday. sigh, i liked it much better when i was the student. maybe this is retribution for my bad student behaviour when i was in secondary and jc. damn. i just thought it was simple because the hours and the pay is not bad but just to tell you all, the work is three times more than the amount they pay you.

okay, i'm just ranting but yeah i really can't stand it anymore! i didn't think i'd ever say this but jac yip, please come back to school!

something, please save me now. i beg you. i really hate my job.

HAIRSPRAY!!!

2007-08-29T08:01:00.000-07:00

OMG EVERYONE! HAIRSPRAY IS THE BEST MOVIE IN THE WORLD!!! omg i tell you i almost cried! it's so sweet i tell you!!! and it's super funny! i won't reveal anything here. you go watch it! (: i bought the soundtrack too! but i have to say the songs sound nicer when i was watching the movie. but never mind! i'm listening to the songs till i go sick! hahaha. thank you huxin, boon, pam, foxy and lalee for watching with me!!! more movies after A levels! aaaaaaahhhhh and thank you mummy for letting me watch. it was the best destressing movie in the world!!!!

judo farewell (:

2007-08-12T01:09:00.000-07:00

JUDO FAREWELL

omg im so sorry girls the worst just happened! you know i took a lot of photos outside without flash and it looked damn nice on my camera then when i transferred it to my computer it turned out really dark and cant really see! omg im so sorry ah. i feel so horrible. got a lot of potentially nice shots know :( and and you know the ones take with flash look damn unglamourous on the camera but on the computer it was like super nice! omg. i hate technology. now i know ok! i wont make the same mistake again the next time we go out. i really didnt know cos it looked nice on my camera. (p.s. thanks joey for accidentally taking some nice ones with flash) so, martina, eileen, those who brought cameras on saturday, please help me out and load your photos somewhere. i promise next time it wont happen! this means that after As we must plan another outing at night and take lots of photos! (btw, my only photo w wensheng also got darkened. (yay!) i mean. (oops.))

p.s. i took like 110 plus pictures altogether. so i have to selectively choose to load. ok? (: thank you for your understanding.

meanwhile, here are the ones that i managed to salvage. as you can see, some photos are really dark compared to the normal ones. sorry! but im sure you all understand. love (: enjoy!

good idea to start with our very glamourous captain, no?

pretty rachel!

fat tummy competition. winner: he mei ding. second: christiana tan. disqualified: lai mei yi

the 4 judo guys

the whole club! i think.

end (ok go study now)

racial harmony day 2007!

2007-07-19T03:36:00.000-07:00

oh dear, so sad. this is going to be our last racial harmony day ever! no more boring screenings about the 1965 riots or accounts by cjc librarians, no more pledging, bhangra dancing, mr kwee on stage, dressing up, yummy food (please, something else other than noodle king!). so sad. :( ok i wont go on very much cos i need to study. and if youre reading this, go study after you finish!! studying is important.

smoking corner

thanks to ronald's amazing phototaking skills

in which we had no time to get ready for the picture.

david the girl

miss too-hot-to-wear-proper-coverage

sexxaye china / nonya ladies
twins?
nah, for you poh poh.
shufen! the only judo person i have a picture with. im sorry i didnt take picture with sondra and siti and martina and yvonne and eileen and chiang! though i did try to look for chiang. but she was running away from me as usual :(

mister chest hair
sorry pet goh who took like 5 of the same pictures.

sweaty wait outside the PAC.

we really had nothing to do and a lot of time. see lah they took so long lor.
seee boon and pam i want to take photos with you okay! you whiners.

ok hope you enjoyed yourself, better go study now! (:

my girls. :)

2007-07-11T05:16:00.000-07:00

When the sun shines we'll shine together

Told you I'll be here forever

Said I'll always be your friend

Took an oath, I'mma stick it out 'til the end

Now that it's raining more than ever know that we'll still have each other

You can stand under my umbrella

ella

eh.

to my lovelies: trudy, ding, shufen, siti, rachel, yvonne, meiyi.

and honourary members: sondra, eileen, martina, min ser.

it was a team effort and im tremendously proud of you all. (: all of us were given a chance to win and it just happened that luck did not totally go our way today. maybe we didnt perform to what we expected, or what we are capable of but please do not blame yourselves. i am super proud of our team no matter what you all think and i think you are all proud of our team too okay. its not that we didnt have the ability, we just made a few mistakes. and everybody makes mistakes.

i love you all more than ever and these two years have been fantastic awesome fabulous and absolutely great with you all around. i treasure the friendships nurtured between every single one of us after all the training, shit, bbqs, punishments, 100 plus gatherings, al-amein (?) dinners, training camps, competitions, post-competition outings, training and just everything we've gone through together. its been a great pleasure to be part of this team.

eye of the tiger.

AKUILALA CONCERT! first time one night only and we went for it!!!

2007-07-01T07:22:00.001-07:00

AHHHH! omg it was fantastic FANTASTIC!!! ahhhh runs around and jumps around like crazy! thank youu shufen for giving me your ticket! it was the ultimatetest fun in the world. its the best night ever i swear! thank you coach (AH-KUI-LA-LA! EEEEEEEEEEE!!!!) and mr koh (oh, toilet ah? not that far.. just 5 minutes only. maybe 2 minutes. aiya, depends how you walk lah!) you all are the BEST i tell you!

sorry trudy for making you run a marathon being the (ironically) only one who wore heels. thank you for sharing cab with me sondra and siti (farmer c sells medicine. haha.) ok im sorry this post is all full of inside jokes.

for all those who dunno whats going on. lets begin right at the beginning. ie. end of training after most of the clubbers went home when me, trudy, yvonne and sondra were near the drink vending machines talking about.. uhm. i cant remember.

so anyway, we suddenly heard shufen rachel and siti laughing their asses off (seriously, rachel's moved to 3 different benches while she was rolling in laughter. i watched) in front of noodle king. coach and tan yi were there too... uhm. cant remember who else.
"huh? what are they laughing at?"
"dunno. must be funny."
so we went towards them. apparently this is what happened.
coach: -takes phone away from ear- "who wants to go watch the christina ah-eeslfdihl-la concert?"
siti, shufen, rachel: huh? the what?
coach: "ah-wee-rala"
siti, shufen, rachel: "ah wee what? the what?"
coach: "ah-kui-lala! you want to watch christina ah-kui-lala or not!"
so in the end we said yes! very excitedly! then coach said want or not! then we said yes! then we were talking then he was like want or not! then we said yes! then he was telling us about how mr koh is a bodyguard (super cool right!!!!!) then he was like want or not! then we were like YES! then we had to settle which 4 of us were going. then he was like "aiya you all go settle yourselves lah".

so after 1st round of gruelling shiais, sondra, siti, trudy and shufen emerged as champions. (actually the rest of us voluntarily gave them the matches but they dont know that so ssh.)
however after the 2nd round, in a surprising turn of events, shufen tapped the dojo.. not because she was in arm lock... not because of choking but because of..... (tension) PERSONAL REASONS! and gave the position to christy! (omg i wish lah ive never won a match before!) thank you shufen.. sorry your mum didnt let you go. :(

so yes trudy rushed to her rural city of hougang to bathe and change while me sondra and siti went to my and sondra's house respectively. we changed bathed and were ready to rock and roll at 6.30! (: plus i bought pocky!
and i got rejected by an old taxt driver! :( he didnt wanna go indoor stadium! and i could have persuaded him except he spoke chinese so i was literally at a loss for words. sigh. but the next taxi uncle was nice and funny and drove us right to the indoor stadium even though he had to go through much jams. (next time dont eat jam for breakfast ah. eat butter and kaya) yes and he kept joking with us! (GST = Government Say Thankyou.) haha!

then we realised. we have no dinner! so we went to buy fish crackers. haha. meanwhile trudy said she was lost. and we were like panicking. then she said she found it. then we were like yay! but she took super long to reach. poor thing! she was in high heels and rushing! sorry trudy!
christina is really amazing man. you should see how many different types of people she reaches out to. there were many middleagers then there were "hip youngsters" like us. then there were aunties with sequinned jeans and 3 angmoh ladies in platinum blonde (actually they were white) wigs and fishnet stockings. so cool!

so FINALLY we went in and we were like screaming the whole way like "omg!!! this is so exciting! ah!!!" hahaha we were damn excited. it was damn exciting seeing the stage and all the curtains and the props at the back (we had side seats so we could see) and we were like really close to the stageee!! i mean for complimentary tickets, they were FREAKING good. then the thing started and everything went dark and everyone screameed!!! then the projectors went on and everyone just kept on screaming! it was super exciting i tell you!! then the curtains came up and we saw the band then the dancers came out and omggg.

CHRISTINA AGUILERA CONCERT!

and so the concert began.
the band started playing the tune that i used to HATE but at that moment on, i was like. this is the best thing in the universe. it was "aint no other man" the trumpet like thing. then this stage came out and the projectors showed her silouette before we even saw the stage.

HER GRAND ENTRANCE.

we were all like aaaaaaaaahhh! the whole stadium was cheering like mad! then the music came "dum dum dum dum dum dum dum dum *high trumpet sound" silence. then christina went "heeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyy!" you know as part of the song and we were like.

OMMMMMMMMMGGGGG. her voice is superr awesome flawless i tell you!!!

so the stage lit up and she was in this white jumpsuit like thing but much nicer and a white hat and a white belt and she looked absolutely amazing and you could see her baby bump! ah! so cute!

so she sang a few songs from her new album. not familiar with a lot of them so cant really remember.

i saw her steal sips of water (inconspiciously) handed to her by her dancers! she was trying to hide it though. like she tries to "hide" during her costume changes. haha but no fault in that. i mean, she is human.

then there was this white shorts costume that had a pretty skirt attached to it at first. its so cool like all her costumes are like detachable so sometimes she switches her costumes on stage without taking any clothes off. haha.

long skirt... must have been some slow dramatic song. sondra trudy siti, enlighten me! i cant remember!

so yes. white shorts. thats what you got when she took off her skirt thingy.

her talented dancers! it was like a old time bar kind of feel.. there were like chairs and tables and a piano right in the middle and the dancers were just dancing all over the place and all over everything!

a red shorts costume with old school chairs and piano and all and it was sooo amazing. and the dancing. she was like dancing and singing and walking and singing and walking down props and singing. and she sounded AMAZING. PERFECT. PITCH PERFECT. like her albums except better and the band was SO GREAT! and you know what she didnt even like lose it. not even once. no cracking of voice no wrong pitch. nothing. she was absolutely GREAAT! she's a super fantastic performer.

and omggg she sang what a girl wants reggae remix ahhh! my favourite songgg omg i enjoyed it a lott! i didnt record it though. not that it would have made any difference. can only hear screams in the recordings. she also sang other old song remixes including "can't hold us down", "what a girl wants" (ah! my favourite song!) and "come on over". we didnt expect she'd be singing songs from her other albums lah. we were pleasantly surprised.

did i mention that she threw her sweat into the audience somewhere here! haha. when she did that siti was like OMG! and grabbed my hand. (siti, i know its just cos you wanted to grab my hand. dont need to hide it you know. haha) yeah i have a lot of these pictures.. not bad ah, my photography.

then here she mellowed down and started telling an undetailed story about her childhood and like abuse in the household. so sad right! i think i almost cried. haha. dont laugh at me! it was sad k. then she said she loved her mother a lot so she sang "oh mother" in dedication of her. awww..

then omg. the props for "baby girl"! the dancers are super talented.

there was a fire thrower and people hanging from those swinging things in circuses and people on stilts and acrobats..

it was super cute! and the fire throwers were so talented they were doing flips over each other and everything

then christina came out in this dartboard thing like she was hanging there but actually there was a platform lah. it was super cool!

and omg it was so great. but then all the things disappeared after only one song... a bit wasted right? the props were really damn elaborate and all of us were like so amazed! we even pointed the props out before the concert began! screaming "so exciting!"

oh yeah then this is the carousel horse! (: but i forgot what she sang on it.

but wow towards the end was just like wow. it was all like hit songs know and unexpected and we were all like ahhhh! it was damn hyped up.
okok this is the beginning of "candyman"! you know the drunk sailors singing. yeah! these are the drunk sailors. haha so cute right!

ok so this song onwards.. thats when things really really picked up. she sang hit after hit! everyone was cheering and singing along. it was so nice (:

hit number one: candyman

photo of the projector.. haha. sorry! couldnt see her face from where i was sitting.

hit number 2: hurt

she sat on this circus thing you know those circular platforms that elephants stand on? like the one in her video... and she was like in this shimery long coat thing. sorry photo quality not too fantastic.

hit number 3: lady marmalade

when this song came on, everyone was shocked cos well, its not really HER song firstly. and secondly, it's quite old but yeah everyone was pleasantly surprised.

i think siti was the most surprised though. must be one of her favourite christina songs cos she turned to me and was like "OMG ITS VOI LE VUKOU SHE AVE MOI" and i looked at her and it was like. (silence) WHAAT? siti is hilarious i swear.

hit number 4: beautiful

all of us we were just like swaying and singing and ah it was sooo enjoyable. ok i couldnt sway my hands (ok sorry siti.... my hands were full!) and she ended off with fighter!
then poof! confetti!
could see why she sang fighter lah i think it must be the most relevant song to her life.

all in all it was a GREAT and wonderful night! absolutely fantastic! i had the time of my life!! :)

the end.

that's from sondra.

JUDO JUNE BBQ 2007

okay yay! finally my own pictures! just the nicer ones lah. 99 pictures in total so i have to pick and choose. firstly, a few judo bbq pictures! (i wont put the unglam pictures to save you from embarrassment. heehee.)

rachel see we told you you were super drunk... and that was even before you drank your "alcohol"

trudy act cute

me showing my skills at pool. i was good ok! except when i was partnered with kenneth.

mini sondra! (haha how true.)

drunk rachel again.

drunk rachel trying to cover the fact that shes drunk.

did i mention that she demanded for cold water served in a BOTTLE? yvonne had to go around looking for a bottle for her! poor yvonne.

i dont know these people they werent at my house.

what we'll be in 10 years time

2007-06-27T07:55:00.000-07:00

here's a tribute to seven (:

S Club
Get down tonight, uh come on, yeah
uh, get down tonight, uh huh
everybody get down tonight, come on

S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club Party, oh)
Gonna show you how (everybody get down tonight)
S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club Party, oh)
Gonna take you high (shake your body from side to side)

hahahhaaha. thank you for today! it was super awesomely fun! cant wait for training-to-be-taitai-day! heehee. i know SOMEONE is extremely happy after today right pam! giggles. thanks to little miss chubby, now i know what kind of devoting kind housewife im gonna be. sigh. my education is going to waste. haha. im glad i have so many taitais/aunties/blur wives/(half an hour later)-oh-youre-back-ah-people as friends! haha.

everyone, this is not a time to slack. if you just spent the last 2 minutes of your life reading this post, GO AND STUDY! love you.

judo training camp!

2007-06-10T06:01:00.000-07:00

yay! we survived judo camp! whoo! so proud of everyone, im sure we all tried our hardest despite blisters and other injuries. and im so happy we completed this together. i especially love my girls who were there for each other the whole time. and of course we missed my beloved (feeling is not mutual unfortunately) partner, MEIYI! and my dear walking piece of paper (quote yuling) MINI!

as you all know, im not really the blogger sort, unlike rachel the terror who raped us all on the first night, ill keep it short and simple. recap!

first day was (i choose not to say "slack")... bearable.

second day, hell suddenly opened and swallowed us all up. especially the hours from 2.30 to 3.35 and 7.45 to 9.30. OMG.

third day, pt was tough! a lot of running. i cannot run, i swear. thank you sondra and trudy who kept pushing me even though i was so tempted to give up the whole time! (: love you babes. but i think the rest of the day, most of us were just struck with fatigue and in great pain so we could not really perform our best... but i think we (see rachel and mini, im not being a suan-myself person okay. i just need to push myself sometimes. SOMETIMES.) all did good anyways!

anyway so before rachel starts complaining again, photos!

p.s. everyone! keep this coming wednesday free okay. i need to check some details about booking the bbq pit first thats why i havent spread the message but i will soon, so just keep the night (or day, if you wanna come over to play pool/hang out first) free okay. invites will be coming up soon! (: love babies.

REJECT.

2007-04-28T05:38:00.000-07:00

i wish i was part of it. but fate made it so i wasn't. maybe it's all for the better. i feel so rejected and outcasted. the whole experience seems so fun, enjoyable and self-satisfying, i can just imagine how i would have felt right before the performance, during it, after it, when the results were out. it would have been fantastic. and i know if i had been given the chance to participate, i would have put my whole heart into it. not that im not rejoicing with the team, im still a part of the club and i certainly support the team fully. its just different when youre watching from the sidelines you know? its so horrible that 30 seconds can just change your future for the next 3 months. maybe im not cut out for it, maybe i never was. i dont know what im good for in life anymore. no matter how i try, i cant quite fit into it, one way or another. no matter how much i try to make a change, it never works out for the better. maybe im not trying hard enough. what is 'hard'? ive never been given the chance to experience how competitions felt till this year. i really just dont get it. why doesnt the experience from house performances affect me in any way. so why is it still like this. how resigned to fate should i be?

my 18th birthday

2007-04-08T03:29:00.000-07:00

yesterday was good :) i really had a happy birthday. (thank you sondra! for organising everything and giving me a lot of lovely surprises!) okay. so first. it was friday night! met the mae sotters for a gathering! and theyre really a funny bunch of people. heehee. ming is so inconspicuous i tell you. haha. mayonaisse fruit salad. haha! the food was fanastic, the company irreplaceable. what more could i ask for. even cat tong and jack squared were there! :) yay. anyway, despite ming's poor attempts at hiding my surprise from me, i really was surprised! i didnt expect the cake for me shawn and ming! (happy birthday guys!) yes, she surprised herself without knowing it. HAHA! the hallmark detective show was really invigorating. and thank you jack shawn and ming for the unexpected (not sarcastic) present! love it. i really had a lot a lot of fun. :) yays.

7TH APRIL 2007.

it all started with my piano teacher scolding me. (way to start the day.) then i went home to change again to go to fish and co. and yes i was late again. i arrived at dhoby ghaut at 10.52am. then i was looking for trudy and she was confusing! i ended up calling her 5 times and going up and down the escalator alot of times! and after all that. i realised we were waiting at different entrances. SIGH. anyway, so when i was getting lost, i met yvonne and algae! :) and algae gave me nice chocolates! (thank you algae!) okay. fast forward past all the traumatic times of trudy's (oh yes. give props to trudy for being the first one to come!) we ended up in fish and co more than 1 hr after expected time. i ordered my first cocktail legally. (yes don, hoho.) and the fish and chips are really the awesomest! see: but before i got that, sondra told the waiter to give me my present instead of the lunch. and i was totally happy! i wasnt even caring for the lunch la. i was reading the card! and i love it. thank you to everyone who wrote in it and thank you sondra again! :) and i love the bag! yay. i have a crumpler!!! thank you judokas! okay. after lunch, let me tell you about the VERY EMBARRASSING EXPERIENCE. i think its probably one of the most embarrassing in my life. even more embarrassing than lying on the floor of far east plaza. the waitresses came and asked me to stand on the chair. then i was like huh? and i was wearing a skirt! i scared i zao geng. so the waitress said she'd stand behind me to block me. then they made me hold a sparkler and they announced to the whole restaurant that it was my birthday! omg. i was damn embarrassed. then they started rapping some birthday thing. it was hilarious! hahaha. and ya it was quite sweet la. in the sondra-likes-to-sabo-me way. and yes, im used to it. so i was very touched. and very full so i refused to eat my birthday ice cream. then they took a polaroid that looks like this and wrote on a postcard for me and gave me a fish. after that, yimin came. and she gave me more chocolates! (today is fat day.) thank you yimin! this picture has no relevance. its just funny. haha.

then the captain and the monster got rather horny. i hope this doesnt become a trend. i shall tolerate it on my birthday only okay! haha.i will only accept this: :)

1. proof that lau yu don actually came.

2. proof that lau yu don actually agreed to take a picture.

the rest of the day was not quite as exciting. we just moped around and went shopping. im sure the guys were bored. maybe except don. look at him shopping. haha. oh ya alvin and boon ping came late. haha! they missed the "good" parts of the day. here's a funny story: boon ping came for my birthday, but he didnt even wish me. even after i wished him. and its not even his birthday! okay. maybe he did. he looked at rachel and wished me. (rachel, its not that funny.) its quite sad really. oh well. thank you for your enthusiastic wishing, bp. its appreciated.

look at toodee. haha! so cute.

THANK YOU JUDOKAS. it really was a great celebration. i love you all! :)

at night, after getting real irritated with my dad, i went to have family dinner! it was alright. just the normal expected dinner. even my sister said it was boring. she said she should have brought me to watch 300 and then hit the pubs. and i wouldnt mind!!! actually, please. you guys should have done that! but neh mind. the dinner was still good. food was fantastic as usual. this is why im still so fat. so, introducing some of my family:

my spastic nephew, alun. (haha!)

my spastic sister lu and her goddaughter (my niece) amy.

sheesh. am i the only sane one in this family?

then we became good catholics and rushed (so we didnt have time for desert) to st theresa's home for easter vigil mass. i was trying not to fall asleep. its times like these that i really treasure the happening st ignatius masses. so after that, we went to che che lu's place (one of my favourite places on earth) to cut cake!

to all those who dont know my family, if the kids dont get to blow out the candles on any cake, they will cry.

i love my kids.

THANK YOU FAMILY. :)

nationals

2007-03-26T03:18:00.000-07:00

today was such a long day. i was really feeling sleepy for the last 15 minutes or so. anyway. congrats to algae, wensheng, bryan and yihan! you guys really did great. now its our turn. get ready girls. we want to win this right?
after-competition outing was rather boring. other than the few times that i did laugh. i had a few fits of laughter today. which is good. i like to laugh. things are rarely funny to me. except maybe rachel (haha.) see! laughing already.
found out that i guess im just not used to being around some judokas. its nothing bad, just completely personal. thats a nice way of putting it. and a lot of my friends are turning out different, changed. so not what i thought they were. and maybe i shouldnt voice my emotions out to them. normally it makes things better. recently it just seems to make things more wrong. or maybe i just require too much more than i deserve. at least the girls will always have each other right. (: i love them.

meiding is crazy. i swear.

im gonna fail CTs. (:

2007-03-19T04:47:00.000-07:00

last week's sakae was damn fantastic. wesley and royston love me a lot now. kidding. we're cool. i think im fatTER now. :(
saturday's training was shioK. with a capital K for kena sai! bloody hell. nationals are when. and im like how. and my entering like shit. and i dont need a thousand seniors to tell me that i suck. that doesnt exactly help. even though i know their intentions may be good. (really?) or maybe they just think im easy to trash so they play with me. and to add to the fact that im so damn weak, it really helps when theyre so damn fat. thank you yimin. (not that she knows about this blog anyway.) and i dont hate you boonping. im just screwed up and i dno how to help k.
sunday was productive. not sarcastic this time. learnt new "basic" techniques that i never encountered before. if you all need help, you know who to go to. (not me.)
JUDODOCTOR@JUDOFORZARA.ORG.SG
or something like that.
its great knowing that im gonna fail CTs and worsen my parents' health by blood barrels. homework is more like mount everest on my table.the knowledge in my head is the sahara desert. is there even a sahara desert? thank fishies i dont take geog. im leading a screwed up life now basically. just when i thought it was going alright. guess im wrong. im always wrong arent i.

emo kid

2007-03-12T08:39:00.000-07:00

you promised me that you'd always be there for me.
liar.

training camp

2007-03-12T00:38:00.000-07:00

actually, i dont know if i was dreading training camp. but it turned out to be really worthwhile and. admittedly, fun. despite all the energy being sucked out of us 24/7. thumbs up for captain ding. the best we could ever ask for. love you baby! and im very proud of all of you okay. j2s and j1s. can see the effort. but push on some more okay. its still not enough to match up to national schools standard. okay, now for some public apologies. im sorry i havent been performing up to my own set standard. especially the last training. i was really being gross, i feel like slapping myself. its a team effort so please forgive me! :( and im sorry for being moody towards the end and maybe even throughout the whole of camp. and im sorry if i scolded you or showed black face to you or anything okay. omg. this is MY blog. hahah. i must stop blogging like im talking to people.

what do the little birds know.
i want to be different, better.
im supposed to be, i have to be.
but its hard to not hate yourself when youre me.

early day!

2007-03-05T06:32:00.000-08:00

yehyeh. so i ended 2 hours earlier today (smiles) but the rest of my class didnt. poor things. cos they end at twelve anyway. so let me tell you HOW salah i am. i promised two people that i'd go out with them. so in the end i had to pangseh gomez hx and boon. (im sorry babies! love you.) either way, i did promise trudy first. so we went (window) shopping and popularing. bought some cute button magnets. yeh! fulfilling our jobs as exco. (which may actually be quite rare for me) then then THEN. we went to watch hannibal rising with sondra! its damn good. pretty disgusting but i could stand it. in fact i was protecting trudy. small girl was freaked out. (: love trudy. then went walk walk and met monster at taka. where she dragged us to walk in a line around in a circle round orchard road to finally land up in starbucks! "you want it separate? together? divorced? married?" haha. small caramel frap! small caramel frap! haha. the coffee boy was so cute. almost as retarded as rachel. she made a good friend. yummy.

my mummy says i talk a lot.

i start a blog

2007-03-04T07:23:00.000-08:00

i started a blog. my mummy says its a waste of time.

joey its cos of you.