nationals

today was such a long day. i was really feeling sleepy for the last 15 minutes or so. anyway. congrats to algae, wensheng, bryan and yihan! you guys really did great. now its our turn. get ready girls. we want to win this right?
after-competition outing was rather boring. other than the few times that i did laugh. i had a few fits of laughter today. which is good. i like to laugh. things are rarely funny to me. except maybe rachel (haha.) see! laughing already.
found out that i guess im just not used to being around some judokas. its nothing bad, just completely personal. thats a nice way of putting it. and a lot of my friends are turning out different, changed. so not what i thought they were. and maybe i shouldnt voice my emotions out to them. normally it makes things better. recently it just seems to make things more wrong. or maybe i just require too much more than i deserve. at least the girls will always have each other right. (: i love them.

meiding is crazy. i swear.

im gonna fail CTs. (:

last week's sakae was damn fantastic. wesley and royston love me a lot now. kidding. we're cool. i think im fatTER now. :(
saturday's training was shioK. with a capital K for kena sai! bloody hell. nationals are when. and im like how. and my entering like shit. and i dont need a thousand seniors to tell me that i suck. that doesnt exactly help. even though i know their intentions may be good. (really?) or maybe they just think im easy to trash so they play with me. and to add to the fact that im so damn weak, it really helps when theyre so damn fat. thank you yimin. (not that she knows about this blog anyway.) and i dont hate you boonping. im just screwed up and i dno how to help k.
sunday was productive. not sarcastic this time. learnt new "basic" techniques that i never encountered before. if you all need help, you know who to go to. (not me.)
JUDODOCTOR@JUDOFORZARA.ORG.SG
or something like that.
its great knowing that im gonna fail CTs and worsen my parents' health by blood barrels. homework is more like mount everest on my table.the knowledge in my head is the sahara desert. is there even a sahara desert? thank fishies i dont take geog. im leading a screwed up life now basically. just when i thought it was going alright. guess im wrong. im always wrong arent i.

emo kid

you promised me that you'd always be there for me.
liar.

training camp

actually, i dont know if i was dreading training camp. but it turned out to be really worthwhile and. admittedly, fun. despite all the energy being sucked out of us 24/7. thumbs up for captain ding. the best we could ever ask for. love you baby! and im very proud of all of you okay. j2s and j1s. can see the effort. but push on some more okay. its still not enough to match up to national schools standard. okay, now for some public apologies. im sorry i havent been performing up to my own set standard. especially the last training. i was really being gross, i feel like slapping myself. its a team effort so please forgive me! :( and im sorry for being moody towards the end and maybe even throughout the whole of camp. and im sorry if i scolded you or showed black face to you or anything okay. omg. this is MY blog. hahah. i must stop blogging like im talking to people.

what do the little birds know.
i want to be different, better.
im supposed to be, i have to be.
but its hard to not hate yourself when youre me.

early day!

yehyeh. so i ended 2 hours earlier today (smiles) but the rest of my class didnt. poor things. cos they end at twelve anyway. so let me tell you HOW salah i am. i promised two people that i'd go out with them. so in the end i had to pangseh gomez hx and boon. (im sorry babies! love you.) either way, i did promise trudy first. so we went (window) shopping and popularing. bought some cute button magnets. yeh! fulfilling our jobs as exco. (which may actually be quite rare for me) then then THEN. we went to watch hannibal rising with sondra! its damn good. pretty disgusting but i could stand it. in fact i was protecting trudy. small girl was freaked out. (: love trudy. then went walk walk and met monster at taka. where she dragged us to walk in a line around in a circle round orchard road to finally land up in starbucks! "you want it separate? together? divorced? married?" haha. small caramel frap! small caramel frap! haha. the coffee boy was so cute. almost as retarded as rachel. she made a good friend. yummy.

my mummy says i talk a lot.

i start a blog

i started a blog. my mummy says its a waste of time.

joey its cos of you.